It has been awhile since I have made a post,
owing that greatly to being confined.

Many things I have tried to squeeze into
the 48 hours that this weekend offers, I
realized that all these things have one thing
in common - That being to satisfy my own
wants and needs. Somehow or rather, I
just had to feel this way, I can't help but to
think that a much greater portion of this
time that I should cherish, should be spent
on family, something that NS deprives me
of. I then question myself; can I really
achieve equilibrium, or am I expecting too
much to ask.

Have had an interesting conversation with
Alan. What is the real purpose behind
punishing a person who have attempted
suicide? That incited much contemplation.
After revoking some implausible reasonings,
I have came to a conclusion that a country
like us cannot afford to have disdained
families. As such, family being the
elementary unit to the social fabric of any
society, is something that the country
cannot afford to overlook.

Reminded of that, I felt even worse.
Especially with

"..Its Times like these you learn to live
again, its Times like these you give and
give again.."

resonating in my head, I am guilty as
charged. With that, I am really
disappointed in myself. The urge to
make my parents happy have diminished
greatly, whereas conversely, it should
have been magnified - to make up for
the couple of days that I wasn't able
to be there.. Just to watch their
wrinkle-scarred, tired, weary faces
putting up a smile, and be reminded
that I am really fortunate to be their
son.

I am not very good at expressing
myself. Many a time there are
instances whereby so much is going
through in my head, but for what I
am able to convey verbally, my mouth
cannot keep up to what I think. This is
where the joy of drawing comes in.

And so, I have gotten myself Painter,
a program that allows you to paint
digitally. Now that I have spent a
handsome load on a PSP, I do not
think it would be soon before I get my
hands on a tablet. However, I have
had fun experimenting with the
program, and heres my first attempt!









Its really difficult to introduce intricate details
with a mouse. I will keep on trying though. =)

I hope that one day, I will be able to produce
something like this:












Just not sure when.